Staying here

So I guess this has become my mini diary that I put out there in public in order to stop being afraid of what people think.

But that's too long to be a title so I'll keep what I've already got.

Confession -- I feel so left out of life right now.

Being sick has made my life horrible.

It's fall, so so many things are happening -- people are getting married, festivals are happening, people are going places, and fun things in general are going around.

And I can't participate.

I've been sick, and I have schoolwork that I can't just up and forget about.

I'm just miserable. I can't be around people for too long because of my coughing, and I can't afford to go places because of my money limit.

I know my friends haven't forgotten about me, and they want me to come hang out with them...but my life is getting in the way of LIFE.


Being a college student who gets sick every couple months SUCKS.

I've been told that this wont last forever.....yes I know, but I still have TWO YEARS of this left and after that I may not even find a job that make it all worth it.

Can't this world just end already??